Happy Clutter-Free New Year!!!!!

Today begins my somewhat of a new year. Technically 2009 doesn't start until Thursday but I am off all this week so I thought why not start doing some new stuff now.

"Like what?" you ask.

Well I am going to clean my house from top to bottom. Daniel is working today so I probably won't get a lot done cause really he is my task master but I do want to get something accomplished besides laundry. So I started with my email inbox lol, just kidding I do that all the time. No actually I will tackle the kitchen and maybe even the bathroom.

I really want to get in and clean the living room but that darn tree is still in there so that room has to wait until Daniel comes home so that will be TOMORROW!!!!!

I am going to leave you now with some before pictures and hopefully the fact that I need to post some after pictures will keep me motivated to clean.

Hormones

Last weekend I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown, but I guess I was wrong it was just good old PMS. Man I hate that stuff.

I mean it I really did think I was going crazy. I couldn't decide who or what to hit, throw, kick or cry about. I did finally throw a checkbook then put my coat on and went for a drive, man when I get real pissy I can get a lot of crap done.

But if my husband had just acted like he really cared and let me talk no matter if it made a lot of sense to him I would have been over the whole thing a lot faster. He nor I really like to share our emotions with anybody let alone each other but I did learn that once I talked to my mom and was able to cry a little bit that I felt a whole lot better and then I was upset because I really wanted to have that conversation with him and knew that I may never be able too.

So dear if you are reading this I was serious the other day when I said next time just hear me out and it will be over a whole lot sooner.

Cabin Fever

Here it is only the middle of December and we haven't had a big weather storm yet, knocking on wood, but I already have cabin fever.

Ok I don't really have it yet but Daniel does and if he feels anything then he basically makes me feel it too.

I have been off on Fridays for the past month and today while I was off I told Daniel I did not want to spend another Friday in Joplin cause we have pretty much seen and done everything there is to do. We know what we are getting as far as Christmas presents for people and unfortunately we don't need to go all the way to Joplin to get them. Sooo that pretty much doesn't leave that much for us to do and since Daniel spends a majority of the week at home he was kind of wanting to go out.

We did go see is Grandparent and eventually made our weekly trip to Wal-Mart so technically he did get out but boy I tell you if this keeps up I may have to get a second job just so I can keep my sanity, lol.

What now?

I'm not sure what I did but Daniel seems to be angry at me for something. If its not anger than at least a little miffed.

I came home to him cleaning the office area, which by the way I told him we would do together on Friday since I am off. But no he said he was looking for something and started cleaning and was going to keep on doing it.

Let me back up a little bit. Earlier in the afternoon he emailed me at work and asked if I wanted to go work-out when I got off, I agreed. But when I came home he decided to stay home and finish the office. 1) cause he was on a "roll" and B) because the weather had started to turn nasty. Which that is fine with me but when I sat down at the computer to talk to his aunt on instant messenger, cause he told her I was home so she started talking to me, he kind of started getting pissy and throwing stuff around. Once he even tossed a pair of scissors toward the desk but right in front of my face without any warning. Now really is this necessary, no I don't think so.

He made a comment about not checking my email like I said I was going to do. I was reading an article that caught my attention before I got to my email and then he made a few other smart remarks and I told him to keep it up I would go to the other room. (He likes to be in the same room as me so we can talk about our days.) Which come to think of it I have tried talking to him lately and he has just been real short and dismissive. Well that is fine if he wants to be grumpy over the computer let him I did nothing wrong and I did tell him we would clean the office on Friday, if he wants to start without me that is not my problem so don't take it out on me, buster.

It must be getting close to his time of the month is the only thing I can really come up with as to be a good excuse for his attitude lately. If it's something else then he needs to make it a little more obvious then.

11 Year and counting

Today is mine and Daniel's 11 year anniversary.

No we haven't been married that long yet, but we have been together that long. Not sure but we always remember the date and year. Most people seem to forget over time but not us.

Course I guess it helps that we don't have that many dates to remember like that.

So here's to you babe and many more to come.

Love ya bunches of bunchies!!!!

Pre-Thanksgiving Stretch

OK by stretch I mean my stomach.

Good Lord did I eat today and it isn't even the official holiday yet. We had a food day at work, mostly because we knew we would be slow so when you are bored what else do you do but eat of course.

We decided on finger foods cause everybody knows that you eat turkey tomorrow so we didn't want to get burned out already. Well what I decided to bring needed to be warm so I convinced Daniel to get out of bed and make it and bring it to me. By the time he brought it to me it was about 45 minutes until I was to go to lunch and so needless to say I wasn't hungry for anything when I came home at lunch time.

When I got back to work I went and filled me up another plate, OK two, but one had just desserts on it. Well my eyes were already bigger than my stomach cause I didn't eat all of it, actually I had a slice of the "Better than Sex" cake (yeah that got the usual crude remarks from the guys) and it took my all afternoon to get the fullness feeling to go away just so I could scarf it down and then I was full again.

Oh yeah maybe it was because I was full but I think I will take sex over cake any day. It was good but not that good.

I got a cold

I am on day 2 of this cold that hit me in the middle of the night on Thursday/Friday. I was so excited about spending the day with Daniel on Friday, I never saw it coming. But needless to say I tried to not let it put a damper on our day together. We did go out but it just wasn't the same. Thanks honey for being supportive. Sorry I woke you up.

So now he is at work and I am here at home with my kleenexes recooping. I could really use a neck massage cause man it is tight. Any takers? Oh well I'll just keep working on it myself.

John 4:23-24 MSG

Not much happened today. Pretty much worked or at least made it look that way, hahahaha.

I hate to say it but I am looking forward to being off tomorrow. Don't like the fact that I don't get paid for it but hey on the flip side I get to spend it with Daniel, which rarely ever happens since we both work on each others days off. So it should be interesting to see what kind of trouble we will get into.

I did have a good scripture verse on my calendar today that I will share.

"It's who you are and the way you live that count before God. Your worship must engage your spirit in the pursuit of truth. That's the kind of people the Father is out looking for: those who are simply and honestly themselves before him in their worship. God is sheer being itself—Spirit. Those who worship him must do it out of their very being, their spirits, their true selves, in adoration." John 4:23-24 MSG (My favorite part is what is in blue)

If you go back and read the whole chapter you will see that he is talking to the woman at the well. And for him to tell her to come and worship the Lord just as she was a lowly Samaritan woman who had had 5 husbands and was currently living with a man who was not her husband, trust me I am pretty sure that just rocked her world.

I know for myself that sometimes I wish that I could pray with power or even show some strong emotions like some of my fellow sisters in the Lord but that is just not me. Ok I will admit when I really let loose I can be real powerful but that is just me letting my guard down and letting the Holy Spirit work thru me. And you know what when that happens a lot of times it is when I am "simply and honestly" being myself before him and not trying to "look" good in front of others or being worried about what others might be thinking about what I am doing because I know that it is alright in the eyes of my Lord because he sees my heart and knows what I am trying to say even if I can't see to get the right words to say them.

Well anyways kind of thought that was really good when I read it and felt like it needed to be shared.

Well Daniel has started putting the lights on the house. He even got up on the roof all by himself to attach the lines along the roof. (He is afraid of heights)

I think the lights will look nice. Just wish we had one of those big fancy houses with the big front yard, but we can only work with what we got and hope for bigger next year.

Here is what we have so far for lights and Daniel is basically plugging everything in playing with his light display timer that plays music and makes the light dance with it. Now this is just a taste of whats to come.

OMG!!!!

Ok at this very moment I am listening to Christmas music. Why you ask because I think my husband is trying to get a rise out of me but oh no I will not let him get the best of me. He loves it when I freakout about this stuff so I am going to make him worry and not freak out.

Who am I kidding he really doesn't care one way or the other.

Its Official!!!

OK, it is officially the Christmas season here in Carthage. Today I watched the Electric Company put up the Christmas Garlands that hang over the roads as you enter town. I took a picture but it was really crappy so you will just have to trust me. Of course that was just to add to the wreath that are hanging on the lamp posts in Central Park which have been there since the middle of October.



Now I know it is a tradition now to see how early we can get the decorations up every year and to be honest I think Wal-Mart wins every year. (Sorry Linda) But come on folks that is why everybody is soooo ready for Christmas to be over with like weeks before it ever gets here.



Daniel is just as bad, this year we are in a competition with his parents to see who can have the most outrageous display and who can put it up first. He keeps threatening to have a tree up and decorated before Thanksgiving and I have put my foot down and said no way. I like to enjoy my holidays one at a time not all in together for three months.



But don't worry I will definitely keep you posted as to how things are coming along and let you know who wins the Crihfield/Griswold Christmas Decorating war. (Griswold because I keep calling us that from the movie.)

Happy Christgiving!!!!

After Thoughts

Ok so it has been two days since the announcement of the next President and I for one am not completely shocked. As much as I do wish it had been McCain the fact and history has now been set into motion and we must move with it or be left behind.

As an American I do feel proud in the fact that lots of people who had never voted before finally got out and excercised that right. My motto still stands though "If you didn't vote, than you can't complain" and you are part of the problem that this country is in today.

I do hope that maybe this has excited lots of people to continue to vote in the future.

I have no desire to complain about what I do not know but I do pray that everybody who voted for Mr. Obama is still happy to have voted for him in the future or we will be in a world of hurt.

But no matter who you voted for be it Obama, McCain, Nader, or who ever you might have decided to write in, now is the time to step up and pull together and become a united country. I believe our enemies are looking and waiting for us to crumble so they can come pick us apart and couquer what they can.

I personally do not have any hard feelings for Mr. Bush and do not regret one bit that I voted for him both times and would do it all over again if I needed too. This country's or even the world's problems did not start with him they started with ourselves, because we as Americans got greedy but of course we can't blame ourselves for our shortcomings we have to point the finger somewhere and he seems to be an easy target. But remember folks while one finger maybe pointing out 3 others are pointing in.

Halloween the day after

I hope everyone, if there is anyone who is reading this enjoyed their Halloween, especially since it was on a Friday and could party all night and sleep it off the next morning without any worries. And if you drank a few too many just say they were for Terra cause she was unable to go out and party.

Don't get me wrong I enjoyed spending time with my hubby but for crying out loud. Halloween was on a Friday and I didn't have to work the next day, ok Daniel did but that isn't the point.

Ok maybe it is since he is normally who I go out and party with.

Well here is to having to much to drink and being able to look as slutty as you want to for no reason.

Should the past remain there part 2

OK after some reevaluation of my last post I realized what I think I was trying to say. I feel like the only thing that I have to look forward to is the past. I no longer do I have the desire to day-dream about what my future might hold in store. I only think about what mistakes I made in the past to get me where I am instead of where I want to be or go.

When I was little I dreamed of being famous like a singer or something. Then as I got older that thought was still there but then I began thinking about dating and getting married and dreaming about what the perfect wedding would be and who the man would be waiting for me at the end of the aisle. Once that happened my thoughts turned to a family and all of the cute things that babies do, such as crawling and cooing and walking and talking. But after 7 years of that dream and the past 3 or 4 years of officially trying that dream seems to be fading. And now I catch myself thinking of things that I can do that my family and friends with small ones cannot, like if I had money I could travel, not sure where but I could.

I could buy a nice house and become the really cool and wise aunt that my nieces and nephew might need someday.

I can sleep in on Saturdays, OK I do that. And only sometimes I feel guilt that I get that opportunity too.

But also I get mad at myself because I don't have children to worry about so one would think that I would be better off monetarily but I'm not. I see people on welfare and other government assisted programs and I think ya know I could probably use that too but since I don't have small mouths to worry about I am not eligible.

Now don't get me wrong even if I did have the small mouths I am pretty sure that Daniel and I would be to full of pride to even consider it, but it makes me wonder that if I had someone other than myself to worry about would I have made better choices in the past. Maybe I wouldn't have put so much stuff on the credit cards that I now can't seem to pay. Maybe I would have bought a cheaper car, oh wait bought that shortly after I was married, so maybe that doesn't count.

Maybe I would have put more money into savings instead of going out to eat because it is easier than actually fixing a real dinner.

Oh well one will never know. Well OK I am sure once I get to Heaven God will show me the turns I should have made instead of the ones I did make but until then I will just have to keep on keeping on and see where this road leaves and hope I make the right turn next time I am given a choice.

Should the past remain there?

Hmm been thinking lately. Which that kind of explains the headache I bet. But anyways last weekend Daniel and I attended our 10 year class reunion. Except for maybe a small and I do mean small handful, maybe 3 people I hadn't seen most of our classmates since graduation day. I made Daniel attend, we knew most of our friends would probably not go. But I thought we would probably regret not going. So I told him if we go this time we do not have to go to any more. So it started out with going to Jim's Bar to do a kind come and go as you please. We listened to a band called Jenkin's Creek, two classmates put together in high school and still kind of play to this day. Unfortunately Friday was the night before the big Maple Leaf parade and I guess Jim's Bar is where everybody who wants to catch up with others goes, well needless to say there were waaaaay to many people there. Daniel and I figured that if any of our friend that we hung out with in school would show up it would be there. We were wrong. granted I am glad that we did go because we did see a few people but man was I miserable because the place was crowded and loud, in order to have any kind of conversation you had to go outside to the patio area to talk and it was cold. But any ways Saturday morning was the big parade, we could have went to Dustin Perkins house to watch it but Daniel and I decided to sit with our family and enjoy watching it with our niece and nephew, August and Nathan. Then Saturday night came out big $30 a person official class reunion banquet. The food sucked and there was no entertainment unless you count seeing how many times certain people went to the bar. OK they did have a DJ but again the music was really loud and everybody just wanted to talk and catch-up so you had to either go outside or sit in the bar area. Eventually some of the girls had enough to drink and did go to the dance floor.

But what I mean by "should it all remain in the past" is I had started looking back in my life and reminiscing and I have thought on some areas that I feel laking in. I did marry a wonderful man and I thank God for him in my life, but I don't feel like I have been the best person for him. I thought I would have at least a couple of children by now and I can barely seem to take care of myself. When we got married the house that we live in was only going to be temporary but 7 years later we still live in our tiny one bedroom, with no chance of moving. I do love my job but even that seems to not be very stable. I am constantly being reminded that it could even disappear if the economy doesn't turn around and we don't get any more business coming our way. Oh yes I do believe that God will not put more on me than I can handle and I know that whatever doesn't kill me will make me stronger but why can't I stop looking back and feeling sorry for what I don't have and instead look forward to what could be coming my way.

Ok that was really just rambling and even I am not sure what it all means.

God is Good!!!

Well yesterday was a really good day to just let go and let God provide. Real short I can say that in my own personal life I have had what felt like a cloud of desperation being lifted off of me. But also in my brother's life I am really hoping that the steps he took yesterday he can see are the steps that lead him to the door of his future and if he can just keep believing and letting God have control then his steps will become that of a righteous man.

July 12, 2008 12:58pm

Ok I just set this thing up so lets see how it takes off.

Little bit about me is that I am happily married over 6 years.
Have no children but I do have a nephew and 2 nieces that I try to spoil.
Love my family, friends, and job.

Really don't have to many complaints, but trust me if I do I might start using this to voice them.

Well if ya got something you want to say or ask here is a good place to do. Please feel free!!!

If I don't know I might even fake a good answer for you.

TTFN
Terra